Tuesday, September 20, 2011

No more Ouchie

I say no more Ouchie because thats how we would describe Konner's port to our other kids. They couldnt wait for Konner to not have an ouchie. The downside of not having a port in is now he will have to get an IV for blood draws. But that is ok. The good thing is we don't have to worry about infection and we don't have to make the 100 trips to E.R for high fevers :) There is are many feeling that we are experiencing right now. Excitement, sadness,anxiousness, relief..... just to name a few.

Excitement because we are excited to finally have his port out. to us it signifies the end of treatment.

Sadness because its hard looking back on everything our little guy has had to go through. He has lived with that port for most of his life. It was placed when he was 2 months old and he is now 19 months. Sadness because you can tell he knows he is missing something. Every once in awhile i will find him with his hand over his heart where his port was. He use to always touch it and now it is gone. That has to be hard for a little guy. To not know why it was there in the first place and to not know why we had it taken out.

We are anxious to see what the future holds for our son and for our family. We hope that it is with him staying in remission.

And relief......I'm sure you all know why.... we feel a huge relief. When we started this journey we didn't know what to expect or when we would see the light at the end of the tunnel. But we see it now and it is bright!

Having a baby with Cancer is so hard. They don't understand why they are so sick. You cant help take their ouchie away. All you can do is numb their pain. I wish that Konner understood why he had to go through everything. But i know that when he is old enough to understand, He will look at me and say thanks mom but i dont remember!

Again I can never say enough thank yous to our wonderful supporters and the AMAZING Doctors who helped save my babies life. Thank You A million Times!!!

I will keep Konner's Facebook and blog up. I will update all of his followers with pictures and how he is doing in life. Thank You for being such a huge part of our family and taking this journey with us. It does not stop here.

Can you just picture Konner in 17 years graduating! Yikes!

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